If you are reading this you probably saw that I am deleting my facebook account for awhile. So here's why.
Facebook is such a waste of time. I spend too much time on there and I decided that I could do so much other stuff with my time. How many times a day do you check facebook? I am not looking down on you if you check it often, I totally did, and that's why I am giving it a rest for awhile. Well, that's not the only reason. Have you seen the nasty comments people make sometimes? Nasty has numerous meanings. It is the downer comments people post, or the mean things people say, or the downright degradable, awful things people say. That stuff just pulls you down. Also, some things just make me very frustrated. I was trying so hard to be friends and be nice to someone, trying to contact them, hoping they would not throw away our friendship simply because we no longer worked together. Apparently they didn't care. It just brought to my attention how surface level a lot of friendships are. My previous blog was about how I am a very loving person. I put a lot of myself into relationships, and sadly I am finding out more and more that others don't do the same. I have been screwed over and left hanging out to dry over and over again by trying to be nice. Having this happen constantly and having it in my face all the time on facebook is just an extra needle in the heart. And other dramas are always unfolding on facebook. I have decided that I would honestly rather stay oblivious and in the dark on some things and find things out after the fact. Life is dramatic enough already, I don't want to add petty drama on top of that. Anyway!
So here's the test as to who actually cares/is a friend. If you want to keep in contact then just look at this blog. I've also got a writing blog. http://smalltowngirlwritings.blogspot.com/ So if you like writing go ahead and go there. If you would rather email then my email is kayleenjjohnson@yahoo.com This is a friends/family only email, so don't send me junk or stupid forwards please! I enjoy reading blogs, so if you have one and want to stay in contact then I would love to follow you. Happy Saturday!! Have a great weekend!
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Pondering on love...
Well just as an update, not much has changed. We are doing well. Spencer is really enjoying his classes so far this semester. He is happy which makes me happy, and we continue to have lots of fun together! So I have been thinking about love lately and the influence/impact it can have on us. Many people know that I am very much a romantic. And (if I dare say something good about myself), I am a very loving person. I feel like that is one of my talents. I have a great capacity to love and when I love someone, I really love them. I don't hold back. And once I love someone, I will usually love them forever or for a very, very long time. I've never thought about it before, but that could be why it cuts so deeply when someone hurts me. Hm... Anyway. So I love to love! Now that you know that about me, I will continue on.
If you know me very well you know that I lost one of my best friends a few years back. For those who do know, if you have heard me talk about him a lot, I am sorry and just bear with me. (It will be four years next month since his passing, maybe that's why I've been thinking about him more lately?) Curtis was an amazing friend. He was truly just a good person through and through. He was one of the most loving, selfless people I had ever known. He is one of the people that influenced me the most by his love for me. We had such a wonderful friendship and he was there for me through a LOT. He helped me so much in so many ways. He was always very near and dear to me and he still is. I will be very excited to see him in the next life.
Anyway, he taught me a lot. And one of those things is love. He was so full of love for everyone around him. He was always looking out for others and never himself. He taught me to love more. Loving other really can fill a void if you are feeling like something is missing. It has been my experience that when you are full of love you cannot help but be happy. Personal experience. Spencer and I are struggling financially and I am struggling with things and I have been very stressed. But Spencer and I are very close (as every husband and wife should be) and I get so wrapped up in our love for one another that nothing else matters. I can't help but be happy and love life because of the love I have with Spencer and also because of the abundance of love we have in our families.
I have also learned to love and not hold back because you never know when someone is going to go away. Both my grandfathers passed away when I was sixteen-- just five months apart from each other. And then when I was 18 I lost my best friend. You really never know how much longer you have to tell someone you love them. (My two biggest regrets have to deal with this, but that will be for another day!) This life is so unpredictable. It's not worth it to not love with all you have.
Anyway. I know this has turned into a short novel. But I guess the moral of this entry is just to love. Love with all of your heart and don't hold back--this life is too short. The two greatest commandments are to love the Lord and love your neighbor. You will never regret loving someone too much, but you may regret loving someone too little. Take every chance you have to pull close to people and love them, especially your families. I'll close with one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite movies.
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return."
What are some experiences/lessons you have learned from love? (I really would like some comments on this. It's never a bad thing to reflect on love and how it can impact us.)
P.S. and by the way. If you haven't checked out my new writing blog you should. Give me some feedback if you don't mind! http://smalltowngirlwritings.blogspot.com/
If you know me very well you know that I lost one of my best friends a few years back. For those who do know, if you have heard me talk about him a lot, I am sorry and just bear with me. (It will be four years next month since his passing, maybe that's why I've been thinking about him more lately?) Curtis was an amazing friend. He was truly just a good person through and through. He was one of the most loving, selfless people I had ever known. He is one of the people that influenced me the most by his love for me. We had such a wonderful friendship and he was there for me through a LOT. He helped me so much in so many ways. He was always very near and dear to me and he still is. I will be very excited to see him in the next life.
Anyway, he taught me a lot. And one of those things is love. He was so full of love for everyone around him. He was always looking out for others and never himself. He taught me to love more. Loving other really can fill a void if you are feeling like something is missing. It has been my experience that when you are full of love you cannot help but be happy. Personal experience. Spencer and I are struggling financially and I am struggling with things and I have been very stressed. But Spencer and I are very close (as every husband and wife should be) and I get so wrapped up in our love for one another that nothing else matters. I can't help but be happy and love life because of the love I have with Spencer and also because of the abundance of love we have in our families.
I have also learned to love and not hold back because you never know when someone is going to go away. Both my grandfathers passed away when I was sixteen-- just five months apart from each other. And then when I was 18 I lost my best friend. You really never know how much longer you have to tell someone you love them. (My two biggest regrets have to deal with this, but that will be for another day!) This life is so unpredictable. It's not worth it to not love with all you have.
Anyway. I know this has turned into a short novel. But I guess the moral of this entry is just to love. Love with all of your heart and don't hold back--this life is too short. The two greatest commandments are to love the Lord and love your neighbor. You will never regret loving someone too much, but you may regret loving someone too little. Take every chance you have to pull close to people and love them, especially your families. I'll close with one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite movies.
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return."
What are some experiences/lessons you have learned from love? (I really would like some comments on this. It's never a bad thing to reflect on love and how it can impact us.)
P.S. and by the way. If you haven't checked out my new writing blog you should. Give me some feedback if you don't mind! http://smalltowngirlwritings.blogspot.com/
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Updates
It's been awhile. Time just runs away from me and I don't realize it until it's two months later! We are doing well. Just trudging along and doing the best we can. If you haven't heard already, Spencer didn't get accepted to the Media Arts Program. It was his second chance, so he is back to square one, trying to decide what to major in now. It was a very big disappointment and let-down for us. We were both really optimistic about him getting in this time, but the Lord has something else planned apparently. Spencer did find out that there are a few classes he can take even without being in the major, so he is taking a production class, editing class, and also story-boarding class this semester. He is already loving them! He really enjoys the story-boarding because it is pretty much drawing all semester. He has to draw every day of the semester. Last night he did a sketch of the Eiffel Tower and it was AMAZING! I married a very talented man. Makes me feel very UNtalented sometimes. But that is a nice segue into my next thing.
So we are super poor right now. For Christmas we decided not to buy each other gifts. We had just a little bit of money to buy something for each other from "Santa." But we were just trying to do really thoughtful gifts this year. Spencer did wonderfully! I am getting voice lessons!!!! I have always wanted voice lessons but never had the money for them. Well that's what 'Santa' gave me. Spencer has a friend from high school who is at BYU studying Music Education. She recently started teaching voice lessons and got me set up. The present was for two lessons, but if they go well and I want to continue them I can and after tonight it looks as if that will be the case. Tonight was my first lesson and I LOVED it! I love singing and miss it so much. I was super nervous for it because I haven't done much singing since I graduated from high school almost five years ago. But I really like my teacher and I seemed to click with her. I was amazed at how much it helped. I have never been very confident in myself, especially my voice. I love to sing, but I have always been very timid and kinda shy about it. She really started teaching me on how to put the sound out and it is already giving me a little more confidence. I am just so happy and excited to be taking lessons!
Spencer has made so many of my dreams come true. I never thought I would get to London, let alone Ireland, but I did both with Spencer. I never thought voice lessons would happen, but Spencer thinks I have a good voice and knows how much I love to sing, so he is making that come true too. I married quite a catch and I am very grateful for him and for all he does for me.
Anyway. This is definitely a long overdue update. Most people that actually read this blog will probably already know this, but I got a new job! I started on December 1st at Mountain Bloom Wholesale in Provo. It is a floral wholesaler. I mass produce wrapped bouquets every day. They treat me SO much better than Flower Patch did. I really like my co-workers. I am head of bouquets and I am actually excited for Valentine's. I mean, I'm completely dreading it because I hate Valentine's Day so much and because I am working for two weeks straight without a day off, but I am actually kinda excited! Something I have really learned recently is how much I enjoy management. I wish I would have figured it out when I first started college, but that's alright. Anyway, I am running the bouquets for Valentine's, which means I will be managing roughly 15 temporary employees. It is going to be hard and very stressful, but I am excited!
So all in all we are doing well. We are hanging in there and doing our best. We are still loving the married life. We made it a goal to try to always keep in in the newlywed stage (we still kind of area newlyweds, only been married for a little over 18 months!), but we are doing pretty well at that. He is my best friend and we do everything together. I love living with my best friend! Anyway... the last thing I have to say is that I started a new blog. I want to get back into writing so I started a writing blog where I am going to do exercises from a book that I bought a while back. And also just writing blips of stories or things that come to mind. It's http://smalltowngirlwritings.blogspot.com/ If you would like to check it out. Well, hopefully that caught everyone up on things. We are doing well, living life to the fullest and hope the best to you!
So we are super poor right now. For Christmas we decided not to buy each other gifts. We had just a little bit of money to buy something for each other from "Santa." But we were just trying to do really thoughtful gifts this year. Spencer did wonderfully! I am getting voice lessons!!!! I have always wanted voice lessons but never had the money for them. Well that's what 'Santa' gave me. Spencer has a friend from high school who is at BYU studying Music Education. She recently started teaching voice lessons and got me set up. The present was for two lessons, but if they go well and I want to continue them I can and after tonight it looks as if that will be the case. Tonight was my first lesson and I LOVED it! I love singing and miss it so much. I was super nervous for it because I haven't done much singing since I graduated from high school almost five years ago. But I really like my teacher and I seemed to click with her. I was amazed at how much it helped. I have never been very confident in myself, especially my voice. I love to sing, but I have always been very timid and kinda shy about it. She really started teaching me on how to put the sound out and it is already giving me a little more confidence. I am just so happy and excited to be taking lessons!
Spencer has made so many of my dreams come true. I never thought I would get to London, let alone Ireland, but I did both with Spencer. I never thought voice lessons would happen, but Spencer thinks I have a good voice and knows how much I love to sing, so he is making that come true too. I married quite a catch and I am very grateful for him and for all he does for me.
Anyway. This is definitely a long overdue update. Most people that actually read this blog will probably already know this, but I got a new job! I started on December 1st at Mountain Bloom Wholesale in Provo. It is a floral wholesaler. I mass produce wrapped bouquets every day. They treat me SO much better than Flower Patch did. I really like my co-workers. I am head of bouquets and I am actually excited for Valentine's. I mean, I'm completely dreading it because I hate Valentine's Day so much and because I am working for two weeks straight without a day off, but I am actually kinda excited! Something I have really learned recently is how much I enjoy management. I wish I would have figured it out when I first started college, but that's alright. Anyway, I am running the bouquets for Valentine's, which means I will be managing roughly 15 temporary employees. It is going to be hard and very stressful, but I am excited!
So all in all we are doing well. We are hanging in there and doing our best. We are still loving the married life. We made it a goal to try to always keep in in the newlywed stage (we still kind of area newlyweds, only been married for a little over 18 months!), but we are doing pretty well at that. He is my best friend and we do everything together. I love living with my best friend! Anyway... the last thing I have to say is that I started a new blog. I want to get back into writing so I started a writing blog where I am going to do exercises from a book that I bought a while back. And also just writing blips of stories or things that come to mind. It's http://smalltowngirlwritings.blogspot.com/ If you would like to check it out. Well, hopefully that caught everyone up on things. We are doing well, living life to the fullest and hope the best to you!
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